Because of cellulites infections and lymphedema due to breast cancer and sleep apnea; I wear a compression garment on my torso and a C-Pap machine at night. Picture the Sesame Street character, Snufflelupagus wearing a corset and you have a clear vision of what I feel like – minus the fur, of course. It’s definitely not a look that breeds romance for either me or my husband. The only saving grace is that he wears a C-Pap as well. Now if I could get him into a corset we’d be a matched set!
While both of these devices are meant to aid in my health, getting used to them is an ongoing effort. Sometimes I grumble as I am getting ready for bed. Ok, most nights I grumble. I know they are to help me but really, Lord?
Last night as I was tossing and turning and having to adjust my mask and hose for the umpteenth time, I got to thinking about being harnessed and tethered. Am I harnessed and tethered to those things that are good for me? Or do I seek out and become attached to unhealthy habits, hurts and hang-ups? And if they are good for me like the compression garment and the C-Pap device; do I faithfully stay harnessed and tethered to them? I confessed that I sometimes do not.
What are you harnessed and tethered to? Good, bad, nothing at all?
I realized last night that I want to be harnessed and tethered to Jesus. I want to unequivocally stay connected to Him, to allow His goodness to create in me a new spirit on a daily basis. No, moment to moment because I have a tendency to go off on a moment’s notice! I know it’s not easy because I have failed as often as I have succeeded. We live in a world full of distraction, sin, and a distorted sense of what is important and of value. It is all too easy to wander into that which is unhealthy, unclean, and unfaithful as a Christian and as a child of God. Like a horse that is harnessed and reined by its owner for direction, I want to be led by my creator and Master for guidance as well.
As I once again tossed and turned and readjusted my C-Pap hose, instead of grousing, I asked God for grace to accept what is good for me despite the discomfort, to be conscientious in staying harnessed and tethered to more than just these devices but more importantly to God.
May this New Year find you closer to God feeling His grace, guidance and love surround you.
Show me the right path, O Lord, point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by you truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day Long I put my hope in you. (Psalm 25:4-5)