Loretta Schoen – Under HIS Wings

Discover the Other Side of Medical Adversity from Being Pressed to Feeling Blessed

Turning Worry into Trust

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2015 hasn’t started out to be a good year with regards to my health.  I fell victim to the flu and cold right after the New Year’s celebration and spent almost a week trying to clear my clogged head, and deciding whether I was hot or cold.  But by the weekend I was well enough to tackle the trimming of some overgrown flowering hedges.  That evening, I realized that chore might have been a mistake.  My body was not happy with that pruning job and began what is now my 9th week of sciatica.  A Medrol Dose pack, muscle relaxants, and anti-inflammatories have not abated the pain or the need to walk with a limp.  I look like a cross between Igor and the Hunch Back of Notre Dame.  My hip feels like it’s got a nut and bold tightened too tight for me to do the simplest tasks like getting into the passenger side of a car.  And putting on a sock and shoe on my left foot causes me to huff and puff and moan and groan.   The neighbors are talking…

The doctor gave me a choice of steroid shots or physical therapy.  Like the coward that I am, I chose the PT.  While I waited for the PT appointment I began to worry.  Would I be able to continue the work God was calling me to do?  Would I be able to take care of the house?  Take care of my husband?  Would I be able to enjoy the trips we had planned to do now that we are retired?  Can I handle the pain without affecting my emotional, spiritual, and physical self?  Worry, worry, worry…  I had my future planned and it didn’t look pretty.

And then I heard God’s word:

 and Jehovah will guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in dry places, and make strong thy bones; and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not.  Isaiah 58:11American Standard Version (ASV).  This scripture made clear three things: 1) God is leading me, step by step. 2)  He will bring peace throughout each and every adversity. 3)  He will make me strong.

I could use strong bones right now, Lord.

And then I thought of Jesus.  For through His sacrifice we know that physical healing is not what it is about (John 3:16).  I realized that God will use us in any and all circumstance and even with our limited body movements.  Although my physical limitations may grow and interfere with the plans I have made, it is God’s plans that will flourish throughout this adversity.

Sigh.  Deep breath.  Calm begins to replace the static and panic I feel.

I’m placing my worries where they ought to be – at the feet of God.  I have been in this place before and God has always been by my side.  As long as I let go of my worry and hold onto God’s presence in my life I can trust that God will carry me through whatever this pain turns out to be.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.  Proverbs 3:5-6

 

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One thought on “Turning Worry into Trust

  1. Very uplifting. Tells us like it is while letting us know “we’re not going it alone” If the pain takes it’s time subsiding we know there’s a purpose.

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